It has been alot easier lately...

I am not having very many schizophrenic symptons lately. I feel almost human again. Which is kind of great but hard at the same time. There are alot of things going on with my family and I actually have to deal with them. I just feel a little down in the dumps, I guess. I'm not slipping into some kind of delusion this time around...a delusion that would take my mind completely off the things that are happening right now with my family. This time I am going straight through it. Totally real life. It just seems like right now I would be half crazy with voices, delusions, and hallucinations...but they aren't there. I would usually get excited about it...whenever this RARE thing happens. But, I am down today.