Sunday, August 31, 2008

Crazy world I lived in...

I was out of meds for 6 days and it was grooling. I had nightmares every time I fell asleep and I was very delusional and hallucinating at the same time. I could barely sleep for a couple of hours at a time and every time I fell asleep I would have a crazy nightmare. The voices kept saying that they were keeping me up because they wanted me to go crazy and have a nervous breakdown. I actually think that I did have a nervous breakdown. I went on Sunday to drive my daughter back to Georgia and I couldn't stop shaking. I was shaking on the inside and the outside. I felt sick too. I don't know how I made but I had to pull over about 4 times ands sit in the car until I thought I could go on. I would just sit there for about 45 minutes at a time. All I could tell Tina was that I was really sick. But aftewr that, when I got home, I layed down in bed and could not hardly move for about 4 days. Mel knew I was sick or something. I hurt everywhere and the voices were terrible. Maybe I was just sick but Lord that was hard.

Well on the fifth day I felt better and even had the energy to clean the house.