Ok...let's see now...the bad one...I am haviong an ongoing delusion in my head that my mother is wishing me certain pains and I can feel them. I believed it was the voices until another voice said "Even your mother does it to you" (giving me painful things...like migrains and emphazima). It feels like the whole world has been keeping a secret from me and my mother is even involved. It is painful, hurtful and I just break down and cry. I have called her since this started not wanting to hurt anymore from it. ANd, apparently, in this delusion other people can only be happy when I am miserable and they try to say or do things to me that are making me sooooo sad.
But, just a little part in me thinks I should try to return to a parttime job and get away from the house for a few years.
