Hospital...

I had to go to the hospital about the schizophrenia. I lost it real bad. I was completely crazy in my head. But I want you to know they put me on suicide watch and wouldn't let me go smoke and it made me so mad that my head went straight. Half way anyway. I said I just want to go home after being there for 2 hours and they just prescribed my regular meds and home I went!!! I kept wanting to hurt someone before I went to the hospital. I mean really wanted to hurt anyone. But instead of telling the doctor that I said I was suicidal. Embarassed and afraid they would put me in a straight jacket....