Sunday, November 12, 2006

The small attack...Panic

I was sitting at the computer when an eerie feeling came over me. The feeling of terror and the beginnings of losing any control in my mind. It got deeper and the darkness of it seem to come over me slowly aaand more and more intense. I found it hard to breathe and I went into a sort of chaos in my mind...like nothing was right and something terrible was happening to me. I went to Mel (my husband) and he knew I was having another attack. So he sat me down on the couch in "my" corner of it and got me a blanket then layed down with me. When I get like this the huge pillows on the couch seem to comfort me and the feeling that serenity is fighting back against this attack. Mel would talk about something that is important to me and if I catch what he is saying I can bring myself around to feeling normal,but, if we stop talking for even a second I am right back where I was. I took my Klonopin and went through about 30 to 45 minutes of this terror before the med started working. Then complete calmness flows through me and then it is over.

1 comment:

Lisa said...

Sounds very much like the ones I have, so I know how ya feel.