I got frantic about 4 times today. I get real excited then I feel like I'm panicking about things that aren't there. Then I feel real depressed about it.
I am feeling real upset right now. When the paranoid stuff starts I get real paranoid about stuff that isn't even true. I don't want to lose Melvin but, if I do I can handle it. I lost my whole family before. So today I should try to show him how much I love him and then maybe it'll work out. This is the most wonderful man of all my life that I have ever known and I love him. Buut things haven't been there best since we found out it was Schizophrenia. I guess while we were dating I should have told him about the "voices" but I didn't. Never thought that I would tell anyone. AT ALL
We have been together just over a year now.
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He is probably still getting used to the idea...absorbing all this may take time and adjustment. It can be really scary, has he ever been around mental illness before?
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